au revoir

well, the last week has been quite rough, and I am tired of chopping up my day into ten minute units to just attempt to cope. no sleep, no time for nothing. and every day held another big crazy thing for me, and no way to escape. except for calling in sick, but I better not start that in the first place.

but the week is over, I got everything done alright. just last night I realized I need to get away from all of this rather quickly, as a friend asked me if I wanted to have a barbecue with him and some colleagues, and I almost hit him. I really don't want to have that barbecue. time out, please.

that is why I took the last tiny remainder of my money and bought a ticket to paris. I know that's wonderfully irrational, paris is big and loud and humid, I should have gone to the woods to live deliberately.

but ever since I came back from Inge's funeral, I feel so angry about the fact that even the best of us end up gone. and no one knows when. and so many things remain left undone.

well, and now I can take running off to paris with unreasonably little money off my list.

Vous voir le mercredi prochain, amis. au revoir.