how do you not go crazy sometimes?
yeah, I know, life is this balance thing with all its ups and downs. and if you're really lucky, they take turns at about the right amount. most of us believe we can interfere, you know, do good so good is done to us. some people call that karma, even though I am not so sure of the whole concept. what if that's all crap? and eventually, no one out there in the universe gives a shit? and you have to decide for yourself how much you put in, how much you bully and get bullied?
isn't karma the next best religious craving? you give and give, and you hope for some better ever after, even if it's next week? oh, please let it be next week. this is so prereformative, and mostly harboured by those who call themselves "modern and enlightened people". life is not fair. if I learned one thing over the last couple of years, it is that. sure, I mostly try to not do to others what I don't want to have them do to me, but I realised that you can feel pretty alone with that kind of attitude. I'm not being bitter. but many a story has up to today taken some surprising turn, and it was only me and my idealism in the end. and I always thought of the two of us as siamese twins, but maybe it's time to go into surgery. uh, tricky metaphor, you know, assuming we both could, like, die... and I didn't even want to get philosophical tonight.
no, I am just wondering how the karma thing works. is one allowed to even ask this question? or is that bad karma already? does this have some kind of system, like on weight watchers? who made the point measurements, and who keeps an eye on the charts and accounts? what happens when I mean to do good, and completely unconsciously do harm to someone? or do I have to do my good deeds in public, so that people will see how enourmously clever I really am? and next time, we call the whole thing networking and stop kidding ourselves?
I seriously don't know.
isn't karma the next best religious craving? you give and give, and you hope for some better ever after, even if it's next week? oh, please let it be next week. this is so prereformative, and mostly harboured by those who call themselves "modern and enlightened people". life is not fair. if I learned one thing over the last couple of years, it is that. sure, I mostly try to not do to others what I don't want to have them do to me, but I realised that you can feel pretty alone with that kind of attitude. I'm not being bitter. but many a story has up to today taken some surprising turn, and it was only me and my idealism in the end. and I always thought of the two of us as siamese twins, but maybe it's time to go into surgery. uh, tricky metaphor, you know, assuming we both could, like, die... and I didn't even want to get philosophical tonight.
no, I am just wondering how the karma thing works. is one allowed to even ask this question? or is that bad karma already? does this have some kind of system, like on weight watchers? who made the point measurements, and who keeps an eye on the charts and accounts? what happens when I mean to do good, and completely unconsciously do harm to someone? or do I have to do my good deeds in public, so that people will see how enourmously clever I really am? and next time, we call the whole thing networking and stop kidding ourselves?
I seriously don't know.
posted by florian at 00:04
2 Comments:
well you should stop worrying and rest in the idea that all will be sorted oout at the end of all your cycles, not this particular one, cause it will not be your first and not even close to your last times around.
it's another day, and things look different again, of course. maybe I was being bitter. I am not complaining: at least I am doing what I love. thanks, though:)
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